For the 5th Week of Christmas...

I am giving you, My One True Love, my whole self. That might seem like a lot to give, but I feel like I am in a place where I can truly give you myself.

I heard once that you are unable to give yourself to another person until you find yourself first. We've talked a lot lately about how much it has meant to me to have you in my life. I have told you that I was so lonely before I found you and how I wanted nothing more than to be able to tell you that I love you.

I remember many times kneeling by my bed begging Heavenly Father to help me find you. It took a while to get that answer, but in a way I am glad that it did. Being in such a lonely, depressed place before I found you has helped me to realize just how special you are and how much you mean to me. I was truly lost and as the song below says, "It was the best thing that could have happened."

When a person is lost or fallen there is always another person who finds or lifts that person back up. To me, you are that person! I have found myself, and now I know who I can be because of you!

I found this song today that I had never heard before and I thought I'd add it to this post for a couple reasons. First, it remended me of you and the way you are blossoming into a mother right before my very eyes. I love to see it! You are a mother now and you are already doing such a great job. Henry is in good hands. I feel like you are "finding yourself" as the mother you were always destined to be. Second, at the 2:25 mark on the song it talks about meeting the one that you've been waiting for. The next couple lines of the song are what I felt when I found you and found myself all at once.

This is a B.P. song that I had never heard before. I hope you enjoy it. I love you McKensie!

Love always,

MC

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=do3EYyVMNf8

For the 4th week of Christmas...

I'm giving you My Love my espalda, or back for those of you who don't speak spanish.

When I think of a back I think of support. I think of how I have felt when I throw my back out. I feel like I don't have strength. Almost like I can't walk along, or move forward. So, let me get back to why I'm giving you my back.

There will be times in your life that you feel like you cannot move forward. There will be times when you feel like you can't keep walking along. There will be times when you feel like you need a little extra strength, there will be times you feel like you cannot go on.

I'm not sure why I am giving you my back, however, because I feel like you are so strong already. I am the one who needs your back from time to time. Oh well, I'm giving you mine anyways. It might be a long time before you need what little strength my back can offer, but know that it will be there.

McKensie, your strength and power never cease to astonish me. You are a shining beacon of faith to me in my life. I'm not sure when you will need my little bit of support, but know that it is here for you. I will spend my life making it stronger and stronger so that no matter how much support you need, I will be able to give it to you.

I love you with all of mine heart. You are my light and my love! My heart aches to be near you and I can't wait to see you with our little boy! You are going to be such an AMAZING mommy. I'll see you soon McKensie.

Love Always and Forever,

Matthew Charles Wilkinson

For the 3rd Week of Christmas...

I'm giving you, My One Dearest Love, my Humerus. Why do I give you my Humerus? Because that is the medical name for the "funny bone" and I am giving it to you.

We are very blessed in our life together, but like anyone there are sad times, stressful times, sicky times, and just all around tough times. The reason I am giving you my funny bone is because I promise you that no matter the situation I will do my darndest to make you laugh, or at least crack a smile when you don't feel like smiling. I am a firm believer that laughing can light up a persons life and brighten their day.

This UBER-SPECIAL woman that I know (it is you) has become famous in my mind for uttering the phrase "Cheer up Charlie" and that is what I will try to do for the rest of my existence. When things are hard, I will try to keep a sense of humor and I will try to keep you smiling, because your smile makes my day better every time I see it. Even if we're talking on the phone I can tell when you are smiling. You're smile lights up the darkest days.

So, get ready to hear more things like, "What do you call two Mexican firefighters?" or "What do you call two Mexicans playing basketball?" or "Did you hear about the Mexican guy who couldn't find a seat at the baseball game?" Yikes, come to think of it I tell a lot of Mexico jokes.

I love you My One True Love! I can't wait to see you.

Love,

Matthew Charles Wilkinson

p.s. What do you call cheese that isn't yours?.............................................NACHO CHEESE (say it fast)

For the 2nd Week of Chrismas...

I give My One True Love my COMPANIONSHIP. This might seem like a strange gift to you since we are already married and I am already your companion and we already spend as much time as possible together, but let me explain a little.

If there is ever a time when you feel nervous, embarassed, shy, scared, or in any way unsure of yourself or any situation you might be in just look around. I'll be right by your side and if I am not right next to you just give me a call and I'll be there as soon as I can. While you wait for me to be by your side just know that I am already with you. You consume my thoughts! I think about you and pray for you and talk to you all day, whether you can hear me or not. So while I am on my way to be with you just talk to me in your mind, I'm sure I'll have something very whitty to say. There is more to this gift though.

Do you remember a couple months ago when we were wondering if we were still in the "honeymoon" phase? We decided we were. My promise to you as part of this gift is that we will continue on as "honeymooners" from now till the end of time...and then a little longer!

There will NEVER be a time when I am not rushing home to see your cute face! I will never need a boys night out, and when I do have to leave your side I will always rush back to give you a great big kiss. I need to be with you! I need to have you by my side! I will always try to be romantic even though I am not very good at it.

Just know that my heart will never stop skipping a beat when I hear your voice for the first time each morning! I wil always get a smile on my face the second I see your cute face.

You are my life and my love. You are my forever "honeymooner!" Nothing can change that, and even if forces try to get us away from that stage I won't let it happen!!! This is what gift of my compaionship means.

Happy second week of Christmas my sweet darling McKensie. I love you forever and always. I always have!

Love,

Matthew Charles Wilkinson xoxoxo

p.s. Sorry this is a few days late! I'll find a way to make it up to you:)

On the first week of Christmas...

I'm giving My True Love my feet. Why am I giving you, My True Love, my feet? Well, let me tell you why.

I give you my feet because I would walk to the ends of the earth for you. There is no place I wouldn't go, no mountain I wouldn't climb just to be by your side. You are the reason I get up in the morning and you are the reason I go to bed each night (so we can nuggie of course!).

There is also a little more meaning to this gift. I have told you before how I was missing you so bad earlier in my life that I was affraid to travel for fear that I would miss my opportunity to find you. Well, that fear is gone now so I give you my feet to tell you that I will go anywhere with you. I will leave town with you anytime you want. Our little trips might not be very fancy at this stage in life, but I will go anywhere and do anything with you. My promise to you is this...when we can afford it you and I will travel the world together (even Fiji)! For now we'll travel Utah together.

This is part one of eight. I will post another blog each week until Christmas. Each blog will be another gift I am "giving" to you. I know it isn't much and the words might not be very well written, but it all comes from the heart!

I love you sugar! You are My One and Only! And I am yours forever!