For the 5th Week of Christmas...

I am giving you, My One True Love, my whole self. That might seem like a lot to give, but I feel like I am in a place where I can truly give you myself.

I heard once that you are unable to give yourself to another person until you find yourself first. We've talked a lot lately about how much it has meant to me to have you in my life. I have told you that I was so lonely before I found you and how I wanted nothing more than to be able to tell you that I love you.

I remember many times kneeling by my bed begging Heavenly Father to help me find you. It took a while to get that answer, but in a way I am glad that it did. Being in such a lonely, depressed place before I found you has helped me to realize just how special you are and how much you mean to me. I was truly lost and as the song below says, "It was the best thing that could have happened."

When a person is lost or fallen there is always another person who finds or lifts that person back up. To me, you are that person! I have found myself, and now I know who I can be because of you!

I found this song today that I had never heard before and I thought I'd add it to this post for a couple reasons. First, it remended me of you and the way you are blossoming into a mother right before my very eyes. I love to see it! You are a mother now and you are already doing such a great job. Henry is in good hands. I feel like you are "finding yourself" as the mother you were always destined to be. Second, at the 2:25 mark on the song it talks about meeting the one that you've been waiting for. The next couple lines of the song are what I felt when I found you and found myself all at once.

This is a B.P. song that I had never heard before. I hope you enjoy it. I love you McKensie!

Love always,

MC

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=do3EYyVMNf8

For the 4th week of Christmas...

I'm giving you My Love my espalda, or back for those of you who don't speak spanish.

When I think of a back I think of support. I think of how I have felt when I throw my back out. I feel like I don't have strength. Almost like I can't walk along, or move forward. So, let me get back to why I'm giving you my back.

There will be times in your life that you feel like you cannot move forward. There will be times when you feel like you can't keep walking along. There will be times when you feel like you need a little extra strength, there will be times you feel like you cannot go on.

I'm not sure why I am giving you my back, however, because I feel like you are so strong already. I am the one who needs your back from time to time. Oh well, I'm giving you mine anyways. It might be a long time before you need what little strength my back can offer, but know that it will be there.

McKensie, your strength and power never cease to astonish me. You are a shining beacon of faith to me in my life. I'm not sure when you will need my little bit of support, but know that it is here for you. I will spend my life making it stronger and stronger so that no matter how much support you need, I will be able to give it to you.

I love you with all of mine heart. You are my light and my love! My heart aches to be near you and I can't wait to see you with our little boy! You are going to be such an AMAZING mommy. I'll see you soon McKensie.

Love Always and Forever,

Matthew Charles Wilkinson